I’ve been thinking about queer a lot. About what I like about it, and why, and what makes it different from just gay. And the culturalness of it, which has gotten much more prevalent in everyday gay sydney in the last 6 or so years. And I think the thing I like about it is circus, and how closely queer culture draws on a history of circus, and burlesque, and the sideshow. I’m not able to fully articulate what I mean at this point, but you can see it in the way queers are performers, and our social ways of interacting are totally tied up in circus, and our politics is one of celebrating our freakness, and our difference.
So, as my thinking is becoming more in this direction, I’ve changed the catagories of my blog to reflect my thoughts. For things that reflect the aspects of my life that I treasure, in terms of events and happenings, we have the catagory of circus. For the stuff that ain’t so much what I want in my life, we have the opposite of that, which I find can most neatly be summed up in the word drudgery. For the difficult drama bits we still have running up that hill, and for random thoughts we have thinkingness. What do you all think?
On a side note I had been thinking of finishing this blog as well. I’ve been blogging consistantly for about two and a half years now, and was just getting a bit bogged down with it, needing something different and fresh. I suppose the way I had been blogging, the types of posts I’d been making, weren’t really gelling with the ways of thinking I’m engaged in now in my life. Let’s just say that in my head, I’ve moved on a bit. But I was watching the ending of shortbus again, and it just kind of clarified that connection i was thinking of between queer and circu, which made me think maybe I didn’t have to end this blog. Maybe I just needed to tidy up my thinking a bit, change the way I interact with my writing to more accurately reflect the architecture in my head now. In the words of martha stewert’s head, it’s a good thing.