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I have been intensely vague these past few days, trying to work out what combination of physical deficiencies are causing me to be unable to function except at the most shallowest of levels. I get up, get dressed for work, walk to work, coast through my job, go to gym, run, walk home, sleep. Hours and days pass in yellow autumn sunlight and cold autumn winds and i’m barely there at all. Am I getting enough sleep? not enough carbs? vegetables? too much physical activity? are my glasses not strong enough for staring that the computer screen? I’ve disappeared somewhere deep into my brain but unable to work out how or when to come back. I spend my days in this strange zen state, and can barely get my heart rate up even when running. I take measured rythmic breaths and wonder how much time has past.